[Verse 1]
Its kind hard when tryna play ya cards
But, everything ain't looking up
I thought god was on my side but
I sin too much. i sin too much
And i ain't been to church in a min
And when i do i just look at the women
And the time limit
Please father forgive me
Cause I ain't perfect, but is it still worth it
Last time i said ya prayers ain't working
You said the cut was gone heal but im still hurting, and im still searching
To find myself, i swear this rap sh**, it define myself, hip hop ain't dead man its just outta breath, and if im on my knees just know im begging for help i just wanna be better than i was yesterday
Lifes a gamble and you oughta play
And everything i'm saying, just know i really mean, its hard to see when you behind a smokescreen
[hook]
Im just trying live my life, yet these demons Trying sorround me
I know its hard to get up
Its hard to get out, when you behind a smokescreen x2
[Verse 2]
Stuck between an artist And myself
n***as get a lil fame and people claim
That they don't act the same
Stay in yo lane these n***as switching
People coming at me like boy you acting different
Ex girl calling my phone like who you hitting, she steady stressing boy she ain't sh** if she ain't spitting, like a cypher
n***as get caught in the honey like Mekhi Phifer, she saying she love me but i f** her like i dont like her
Yep , Yep i rowdy roddy piper
Its all tied up, but i shot it just like im Micheal. Cause i ain't tryna even the score
And if we on the same page why you cuffing just let me go
And i know, that karmas a b**h
And at the end thats who we gotta deal with caught between reality and my dreams and the only thing in the middle that smokescreen
[hook]
Im just trying live my life, yet these demons Trying sorround me
I know its hard to get up
Its hard to get out, when you behind a smokescreen x2
[Big Rube]
Imagine being able to control your own destiny and shape your own future and then, one mistake take all that away, the reality of it is you do control your own destiny and future and one mistake will take all that away. think about it