I spend my days in self-disdain
And I feel so ashamed
Because I know that in the end
I would do it over again
You'd better
You'd better done it
I can no longer bear this cage
That you forged out of lies
And I get stronger in my rage
Say can't you hear me cry
You'd better
You'd better done it
Why didn't you k** me
Why didn't you k** me when you could
Why didn't you set fire on my pyre
It would have been better if you had k**ed me there and then
Why d'you kick me in the stomach in your boots
I can neither breathe nor speak
I try to protect my face mith my hands
But we both know I'm too weak
You'd better
You'd better done it
I don't know if you're still cutting me
And if you know that it's in vain
I don't know if you're still shouting at me
Can't hear anymore feel no pain
You'd better
You'd better done it
Why didn't you k** me
Why didn't you k** me when you could
Why didn't you set fire on my pyre
It would have been better if you had k**ed me there and then
Is it wet because you spit on me
Or is it blood that I spat out
Will you stop just for a while
Please tell me do I still smile
Do I cry or am I laughing out loud
I wonder if you're still cutting me
And if you know that it's in vain
It doesn't matter that it hurts
I cannot understand the words
No matter how you cry or shout I feel no pain
And I feel nothing but grief
And the fear of seeing you leave
And the shame of knowing I would do it over again