I never wanted to fall from the top of the world but here I am
And now I am tired and f**ing ugly and I hate it but it's all I can be
Locked up, f**ed up but I know I'm not the only one
I hear that life goes on, but I guess just not for everyone
Consumed by bliss that now all I do is miss
The memories can make me happy but now I'm f**ing pissed!
Hopeless
Irrationally searching every single dimension to find a way to bring me closer to you
It's night like these when my jaw is being pried off the sides of my face and it feels as if somehow I swallowed a f**ing shoe
I want to tear out my throat so just for a minute I might be able to finally breathe
What has happened to me?
Not a day goes by when I didn't wish I were still living in September 2005
I never wanted to live this way or to feel this pain
And I can't stop asking why
Now I see that life is just a game
Sometimes everyday with out you, is another day I wish I didn't have to go through
It still hits me like a brick everyday and it will never go away
I never wanted you to go away
I hang my head deep into my chest, tormented to realize that for now this is the best
I want my life back, I want your life back more than anything
I never wanted to fall from the top of the world but here I am, and to some degree I always feel like sh** because your...Gone, forever
Gone, taken from me
Gone, f** f** f** f** f** f** f**
I used to think depression had nothing to do with me
Now every day of my life I'm faced with despair and misery
Because some dumb f**ing a**hole made some bad choices, and he landed on you, and we all pay the price...Now I know the meaning of being alone