All alone
In the night
Isolated from the human touch
Watching
Waiting
But there's not a soul that comforts me much
All by myself
What do I see?
It's just reflections of the life I lead
Paralyzed
By solitude
Would the pain all go away if I bleed?
Wondering
Debating
Do I loathe the world so much to go?
Thinking
Scheming
Plans for an action graver than I would know
Questioning
Reconsidering
Would I miss my family and my friends?
Knowing
Deciding
Not caring if the means are justified by the ends
Slowly
Carefully
I choose the time and place of my demise
Cautiously
Judiciously
I ask myself the last time "Is this wise?"
Steadily
Deliberately
I move the blade in a way profane
Soothingly
Consolingly
Black solace flows out from my veins