I've scratched at my skin and slapped myself in the face
More times than i'd like to admit
But there's no waking from this nightmare;
You left like the rest
And you told me we'd be together until d**h;
These empty promises have fallen to my feet. and i'm just too tired to pick up all these pieces
And so are you;
And darling, you said we were meant to be
You said you'd never leave
Well it's been a long while
Since you've checked up on me
And i can't say i'm doing better
And i feel so cold in this april weather
And i'm wearing the sweater
You loved so much
f**, i miss your touch
Against my calloused skin
I wish i would have let you in
Sooner than i did
I miss living inside your head
As you lay down to sleep in your half empty bed with eyelids made of lead
And darling, i just wish i was dead most nights;
I remember every word you said
In moments spent laying on my trembling chest
And you loved me more than the rest
I loved you more than the rest
But that was before
I was such a f**ing bore;
I talked your ear to the floor
And you lost everything we worked for
Was it a connection or a forced invention
Created under this distant tension?
I don't know anymore
But it's obvious we've hit regression
And this lovers pension
Is dried up and broken
More than the only question:
Where did your love for me go?
When did your heartbeat slow?
Have you cut your hair yet
Or are you letting it grow?
Oh, who the hell even knows;
We don't talk, but i'll stop writing
If that's what you want from me
I'll never meet your eyes with mine
And i'll never lay with you again
To watch the sky
And as we come down
From this beautifully tragic high
I just wish i would die
Where did your love for me go?
When did your heartbeat slow?
Have you cut your hair yet
Or are you letting it grow?
Oh, who the hell even knows