Ambivalence - Escape From Oneself lyrics

I see with a splinter of an artificial eye The shadows of the leaving people, That I trusted not long ago. I rush about on the corridor Of the cluttered consciousness And look for exit from madness, Search for myself for a place, A chink to escape from myself. I tried to help the drowning friends, But they just laughed At the extended hand And sunk in the swamp. It is repugnant to bang the head Against a wall in hope That someone will see The bare surface of pain, Which has overfilled my mind And asks to let it out. I've lost the way. How to find the exit from The endless tunnel of uncertainty? It's so hard to realize one's Weakness and uselessness. To drop on bottom with scream "Please, hold me back!"