Ambitions - Neon Lights lyrics

Thins are looking fine, maybe on the outside. The season's stirring me and I can't control my instincts. Emotions blocked out, I left you strung out, I struggle to be free. Gentle masquerade, and I can't control my actions. How did things wear down into such decay? How do I express the way I feel today? Feeling out of touch, striving to stay sane. How do I explain what I became today? Running from myself, trying to forget, but regret will never leave me. Emotions blocked out. I left you strung out, I struggle to be free. Humanity's charade, and I can't control what's happening like I should. How did things wear down into such decay? How do I express the way I feel today? Feeling out of touch, striving to stay sane, how do I explain what I became today? And I'm hiding from these rays, they're penetrating me, and I realize I cant' theorize your pain. Searching for the right words to convey. Time well bury choices I have made. Well I learn to live with my mistakes? Or will I be stuck here, in complacency, in the wake of these neon lights