Already A Thief - PTSD lyrics

[Verse 1: Already A Thief] Can't get an ounce of sleep Every night it all repeats Feels like just yesterday I was standing in the rain With my feet deep in the mud Bullets flying past my head sh** my best friend just dropped dead I can't do this anymore I grab my gun and start to run And this time I cannot look back But it is just so f**ing sad I didn't even think again And what I did I will regret until the end I will be sick I toss and turn here in my bed Every day I wish I'm dead These thoughts keep runnin' through my head I'm so depressed I wish that I could rewind time To the day my best friend died Cuz I didn't even cry But now I would do anything For him to be by my side I would run right through a mine Just to make sure he'll be fine But f** it s**s I can't do that I'm stuck with this I hate myself Enough with this the sound of war it hurts my ears It brings me tears I drown my fears But really I'm afraid of everything I'm afraid of everything [Verse 2: Already A Thief] War ain't fake it's not a game I shot a kid right in the face They told me that he had a bomb We searched him he was innocent Just think of that he's innocent Now his family's missin' him And they will ask who's fault this is And I'll be thinkin' back And it as one more thing I will regret I hate myself for doin' it I really f**in hate myself Don't even say you know this sh** Cuz really you don't know sh** You don't know what I saw… You don't know what I've been through Who I vent to, what I did do What I didn't, wish I didn't But I did it I feel sh**ty it's a pity Don't you even look at me The good guys always win right? But really on the inside Victory is never in sight Cuz you're busy aiming down sight Doesn't that sound right? Looking back in hindsight I would rather sleep tight at night Than get up caught in a gun fight Now I get hard nights, day dreams I am goin' crazy… PTSD