Alphacat - Lord Knows Freestyle lyrics

[Verse 1: Alphacat] I remember it like it was yesterday, the day we met Came to your hotel, knocked on your door I had bu*terflies and hadn't met you yet Then oh my god like Fourth of July how them sparks flew I loved your energy, you loved the way I looked at you We laughed for hours like it was what we were meant to do Destiny, right place right time when I'm sitting there right next to you We laughed all night at nothing and loved each others jokes People swore we were high, but neither one of us smokes A connection so insane, we sat at P.F Chang's Asked you to be my girlfriend, I swear my heart was engulfed in flames Remember you told that I made you feel like you never wanna die And I looked in your eyes, and said I felt the same Never before I had been so sure I had found the one Writing was on the wall...man I was smitten Holding your hand shyly as if I needed permission Cupid was a rabid dog and trust me I had been bitten 4 years later we got a place, a car Careers are budding and we both in our own rights have become stars Waited months while you toured like faithful puppy dog Supporting your career yeah I miss you, but go get em doll Then you came home acting kinda different Kinda cold, kinda distant I chalked up to all the travel and maybe all of the distance But you remained persistent with your sudden indifference She said I think I need some space, I'm not sure I said you were gone for two months my love, what could you possibly need space for? Something wasn't right, so I began to pry She got mad and exclaimed, "Look I told you there's no other guy" But nothing made sense and none of it was adding up As my guy was going wild and my boiled and I felt flush She finally fessed up I had feelings for another guy but I swear that it was just a crush I'm thinking that guy? Are you sure? The security guard I met on your bus during the U.S tour? She said that's not the point, I think our flame died And I think your feelings changed, I thought who told you that? Somebody lied She told me things could've told me many months ago That was wrong. Like acid misinformation burned a hole She nit picked with quick quips that hurt like razors Told her everything she said combined still weren't deal breakers I told her you have way more gumption It's so damaging to not communicate and sit and then just make a**umptions She said I can't help how I feel I said are you for real? Relationships take work, look love, that's just part of the deal Didn't think that things were over, I had my hopes up I thought that she would come around and we could both just patch it up But I was crushed, yeah my heart bled To see you sleep back turned as far as you could to your side of the bed Under the premise that things weren't finished Most people would blow a fuse, I took it in stride, said "Let's wash off the blemish" But you were checked out and it happened so quick Cold turkey on 4 years, that's one hell of a magic trick Noticed you barely kiss or touch me You hated when I told you that your lack of actions really made me feel ugly I asked her what I did wrong She said "Nothing at all" Stuck to her point of needing space then headed home to Montreal Came back weeks later things still up in the air Knew I was losing her and it felt so unfair Still spent Christmas together, hoped things would get better Talked it out cried at time, but still cuddled and laughed together I came back home, she stayed, I prayed God please bring her to me one day Then the moment came when we spoke on Skype You said it was over and you were moving on with your life That's when it hit like a ton of bricks all the pain and the sadness Is she really leaving? This is madness It seemed to happen so sudden it really messed me up Like a flipped coin I just wished that I had a heads up Feeling robbed, I sobbed till no more tears came out me She was my breath so when she left naturally it knocked the wind up out me I'd sit and hypothesize all the reasons why And couldn't shake an overwhelming need to apologize Wake up in a panic and reach for your side of the bed Hoping to talk, but realizing you are no longer there Ignoring Skype and my calls Shock to my system cause in 4 years you had never done that at all They say there's 7 stages of grief, but I swear that there's more Cause I'm stuck somewhere between 2, 3 and 4 It's distorted, but the connections still Both of us tweeting at the same time about nightmares I never thought we'd fall It's a strange feeling to envy another couple that looks like they both got it all Think the gra** is greener? You should've watered your lawn I'm sorry, I know, I should've worked harder on Iman Never checked out on you I'm stuck wondering where these incidentals came from Cause this list is a strange one A bad dream? Man, it has to be That it all ended on the same month as our 4 year anniversary I told you something I never told you before A year ago I wanted to walk out of the door, simply cause you were on tour Hard not to feel lonely you were so busy But I don't fault you for that you deserve success to the stars and back Seeing your face on Skype always made me feel better My heart would thump like, 'come on Iman, pull it together' I stack the reasons why I loved you and that list soared You were worth more than me leaving simply cause I was bored Seeking fulfillment in the wake of your absence But I can't find it or grasp it it's like illegal to have it like real absinthe All the king's horses and the king's men Found a shattered heart is difficult to mend But I thank my friends For snatching me out of the house You need to sleep, you need to eat here have a drink, Iman Let's go out and then party it out My heart swears that forever is what we're meant to do My logic shrugs and say's 'Look, she's just not that into you' All the reminders of our history Frames facing down like all our pictures all depressed with me Fairytale love turned toxic Once in a lifetime memories pried apart and then reduced to separate boxes To me it was never an option To get this far away from the days when you and I were ring shopping I'm only so hurt cause you were one of a kind Your choice to leave is fine, that's life, now I gotta get back to mine I refused to stay stifled My head spun so much that it was draining Like washed clothes in a spin cycle I fought for us in a time when my thoughts were hard to sort Why ain't you fight when the ball was in your court Getting my strength back and it's like learning to walk again Cause my heart to me is like long hair was to Samson I prayed like Christ "let this cup pa** from me" cause it's stress I hold the cup well, but I spit it all when I drunk text This is a lot of emotion, oh wow I'm sorry ya'll I just miss her tilted smile And I'm sorry for saying I wish I never met you I was just hurt You were above and beyond something special Actors we draw from experiences to make a scene true That acting scene I did, the mannequin was you They say the one who got away can hurt But what I've learned is the one that walks away can hurt worse Picking up the pieces not really sure where to get started Mornings and nights are the hardest They say the length a relationship lasted It'll take half that time to truly get over and past it How you left is my only gripe It felt like someone died and I'll never understand why didn't fight But, all that talent, I know you'll go out and wow them all And when you do, for you, I promise I'm still gonna stand and applaud How much I loved you, only you, I and the [Choir] Lord knows [Outro] No! No, she has a strong heart; she wants to live! C'mon Liz! C'mon baby! C'mon breather, baby! Goddamnit breathe! God damn you b**h you never backed away from anything in your life, now fight! Right now! Do it! Fight, goddamnit!