AlphaBrownMusic - One Fan lyrics

Driving home in the darkness Long day and i need rest Just yawned, that’s a testament {yawn} And again… For once, there’s nothing in my head… {verse 1} Now there’s something in my head And i’m crying as i write this Emptying my mind until its… Where the traffic man when you need it? I need to get these Lyrics out of my head Emotional wreck I’m overdriving lights ahead I can’t… Gonna’ scribble my art when the car rests Empty out my mind until its… I’m at a red light so i can write all One fan, that’s the title, i’ve decided Despite all, of my efforts, bеfore To write about my mentor I havеn’t found the words until tonight So, here goes… I’ve got one fan and it’s my mom man She’s the one that understands She’s the one when i wrote things down And looked for help who raised her hand Who believed in me when all was lost My rock from the bottom of the rocks Rocking in a hard place Trying to keep my mind straight Desolate days Etiquette plain I lay on the floor And felt nothing but pain Questions begin to arrange We’d go for a walk and rearrange Only then, would i let her explore The blown hinge of my lower jaw Meta more, physical Through the wire I couldn’t speak my flaws Take my life and i’ll take on yours Home schooled me When i got home from school Missed that exam Cause i’m rushed to the ward I’m sitting in my hospital bed She’s sitting on the chair just next Years of our lives That’s where we spent Half-dead, on steads on a Iv drip with the strong meds Fist clenched in my mom’s hand With the strongest love that i’ve ever felt New news was always bad news Felt used and abused, it loosened our screws We got lost in a world of we loss or we lose Ducks out of water, our ducts were out of water Screaming in corridor, on the floor Twenty-four, ward 7, real lesson The test results are a big concern The drugs we have, there’s a lot to learn No guarantee you won’t take a turn That when i found that you live and you learn She was the lifeboat for my hardship We made it out without drowning Grew richer with that 2 cents Her knowledge thrown in my fountain We’re both introverts Who talk a lot, paradox Ideas exchanged Food cooked for me to contemplate Philosophy, and other ology’s Oddities in the odyssey Conversational curiosity Long walks, miles thousands Muddy boots and rolled trousers Dog growls at the other hounds See fibonacci on bloomed flowers We cover ground and become grounded On those molehills, we moved mountains Mentally i found answers To the questions i didn’t know i was asking But, as time goes i expect change When pain sails on a new wave So, i make the most to appreciate The simple things that we share today Like dim, light night chess games Contest for the checkmate I reflect back on the years gone Write my wrongs Just wanna make you proud mom Cause you’re my one fan I love you mom {verse 2} In the past i had two fans My mom was one The other was her mom, my nan But she passed away A few years back now She looked after me when i was, off track Beaten bad, so deep, my soul sad Helped my mom an awful lot man But even, way, way before that When i was five or six maybe I would sing, nursery rhymes standing on this blue stool, in the living room Humming parts because i’d forget the words to half of the tune With an audience of one, two if the neighbour came around opportune Her tea, if stirred, well with a spoon, on those slow afternoons Would create, bubbles of money She would say Kinda funny cause tonight I’m stirring up thought, alone Feeling like the richest guy In my introverted bedroom Oh, how the times have now changed Pains paved the way And it’s rap i have chosen to express mind And the loose change i have, i use To make my tunes live She taught me this And other things i have yet to write But, now she’s gone And i’m left with one, fan But i guess that’s life