Akala - Something Inside My Head lyrics

They wonder why the caged bird sings But even worse a pain Is the bird with lead wings It's like I'm on my own town But can't speak the language Crowded to the point of suffocation Still feel stranded What bandage could heal scars invisible Existing is easy it's living that is difficult It's like a ritual I get close to believing Then I put a fortress up to close in my feelings Dreaming, so close to achieving Then I throw it all away 'Cause I'm scared to receive it Living every day in my shadow I find my resolve When the cold night swallows that shadow I travel through the landscape Searching for why But the question follows everywhere I go Like the sky You don't understand my soul Well neither do I It's just something inside my head Won't set me free Won't let me be It's just something inside my head Comin' in between you and me It's just something inside my head I wasn't born this way My condition was learned Once bitten twice shy I don't wanna be burned When you travel a pa**age That leaves your soul ravaged Your mind waxes placid to limit the damage Your reaction is pa**ive Whether you like it or not You cannot win whether you fight it or not Your brain swallows the pain and buries it instead Now.. It's just something that guides my Something that drives my Something inside my head I offend myself then avenge myself And pretend it helps to defend myself I believe myself then deceive myself To retrieve myself I don't need my help Whether the brave myself or slave myself It's strange every day I'm not the same myself I love myself then I hate myself