Adriel Rivera - The-Realization lyrics

{verse 1} Sometimes i wonder why i feel alone Sometimes i'm stuck inside my bed at home Contemplating my existence If i'm really here or if i'm just an instance In a universe that's greater than me, older than me The word of god or the fact that he's mystery None of it's clear to me So i'm just gonna sit here and weep 'til i build with grief My head burns from the thought of it all My heart yearns for the fate of my soul My mind's alert, yet my body's stone And i can't find a worth of my lifelong So tell me you're really real Then why the hell do i have this feel? Why do we suffer? Why do we die? How do i know if we're really alive? {chorus} It's like i'm stuck behind a tv screen And no one else can understand what i mean I pray to god if he can feel me And tell me if i'm worth it, worth it If my soul is really worth it, worth it, worth it {verse 2} Do you remember last may When i would sit in the day Crying to myself, trying to pray? I was lost in a {?} And, honestly, that part i questioned hasn't left It's still inside of me I wondered, where were you? If you had something to do Or, if you left us long ago, we weren't given a clue But i guessed that, that's fine In the end, my thoughts left me with a better mind I had to cope with my derealization But came through with a new realization I gotta live in the now, don't question the matter If i think way too much, it only makes me even sadder So time to focus on living life I'm stop focusing on what even is paradise 'cause, god damn it, i'm alive! Yeah, i'm alive {chorus} It's like i'm stuck behind a tv screen And no one else can understand what i mean I pray to god if he can feel me And tell me if i'm worth it, worth it If my soul is really worth it, worth it, worth it