Adriatic - Note To Self lyrics

[Verse 1: Artifex] I used to be empty Then I filled the f**ing void I'm stepping over people Like my childhood toys Locked inside a gla** box Wonder why i'm still lost Met an angel, saw the darkness Severed from the cross In the moonlight is when my inner demons strike It seems I'm always stuck between a servant and a son Always on the run Just please... Remember the better me Before my first love painted me a loaded gun I've conquered every monster Underneath the moon and sun My room is filled with day and night... And night and day But lately I've been missing what you used to say was great I tried to be myself but strangely it still felt the same I tried to be one of a kind but it still came out plain So now I take em double time Watch me do this trick of mine I can take my eyes I can turn them from blue to blind [Hook] This is all in a note I wrote to myself in my own cold blood [Verse 2: Artifex] Pardon my strength Just like knives like rusty fish tanks Can you fixate We're i then might think in mistakes Blink to the other hand Flash to the retakes That rebate tastes like sulfur Swallow matches Watch in wonder Cut to the part with a glance to the past Let it darken, looking at the double sided gla** Mans best friend Mans best foothold Not so strong, can't speak up Send that ego climbing ladders Drop to the ground and shatter broken Never let the shards and pieces glue together Now or never that chance, come on lets dance and shower in my tears I spent years of pointless searching It's now clear It's not worth it Don't you see me hurt or care Can't you notice nobody watching Watch me now It's my turn See me crash and burn in the past Ms. Future told me since I knew her But I doubt that I'll make it to her Fast approaching, I hope we have the time to learn our lessons Anecdotes I grab my hope and teach it how to fake depression I sought the answer un-prevailing so I turned to run Blood red, filling pages someday it will come Until then [Hook] This is all in a note I wrote to myself in my own cold blood