Aaron Dillard - This is Me lyrics

I am Aaron Dillard To that scared lady in the back, I'm a random k**er To that person watching me shake hands, I'm a random dealer To you, I'm who you think I am, no matter how I feel I could be all that, or I could be myself I could live in poverty, or I could swim in wealth I could lie and show you everything you wanna see But I won't and I'll introduce you to the real me I'm not your average rapper Well first off I pride myself on how I look dapper I use words like that and I went to boarding school And I'm afraid of jail, so yes, I follow all the rules Parents are still together Was on honor roll and I wear Christmas sweaters Anyone or Lupe? Well I'd say Lupe's better And I've respected my girl from the second I met her Grew up with a dad who taught me all about my history Used to fill my head up with books until it was blistering Sometimes I doubt myself when I think nobody is listening And I bet this sounds strange like an instrument that just missed a string Asked me why it is that I wanted to rap on em Not good at sports, was never running track on em But I think I'm ahead, I'm running laps on em But they don't get my bars; I gotta go back on em Couldn't say I'm stereotypical You might think I'm flip-flopped like a reciprocal But I'm rapping a song, so am I typical This is getting weird, this is getting mystical Struggle with this thought every day and night Is what I have to say about the media just right? That it drives us to only wanna be a few things in life Yeah, but it's the only way I'll bring y'all to the light I'm Physically speaking Lyrically Peaking Spiritually Seeking Thank you God for this gift, now tell me where's the deacon I'll rhyme this thing to completion My fear is competing With myself But I know I'll never be beaten But its coming together in perfect harmony Nobody bringing me down, there is no way of harming me The way I feel's electric and man I think I'm Carmen E I'm addicted to this music and I think I'm going far in deep Heart's off my sleeve, I left it on the track I promised to myself that I am never going back To feeling completely hopeless from struggling being black So to my proud brothers and Sisters, Please tell me where y'all at No need for a book, this song is biographical This verse is almost done, but I got another lap to go I'll never be the person that you wanted it to be But just know I'm not lying when I tell you this is me