A Life Once Lost - Grotesque lyrics

These words collapse your confidence your destructive existence is nauseating fake, with no self-esteem; you're nothing you change with manic uncertainty now I will be the master now I will choose my boatswain I push myself in and out of relationships but I don't know you I push myself in and out of control but I don't own you exactly how should I stand here, waiting for you to finally answer as you verbally bash me