A. Holycross - I Hate Myself lyrics

[Verse 1:] On a scale of 1-10, my self esteem is negative I f**ing hate myself, I am my own nemesis I look in the mirror and see a hideous ba*tard My reflection's been tarnished from continuous laughter Don't know what I'm after, don't know what my dreams are I'm a fantastic rapper but being one seems hard f** fame and being constantly out on the road I want a family, man this sh** is outta control But this rap sh** - it's all I can conquer Why couldn't I do magic or be a damn doctor Not to mention my dark thoughts, I ain't no saint I'm f**ing crazy, I need a brain constraint I'm throwin' myself into panic attacks Wanting to load the .9 up and cram it with bra** But f** it, I guess I'll carry on with this legacy And stay strong till I'm gone and nothing's left of me [Hook:] God said love thy neighbors and thy enemy But I am my enemy, so what's my remedy? I hate myself, you don't have to feel empathy But you don't know what I've gone through mentally You're hurtful words that I chose to swallow Made me bite my tongue and soak in sorrow Now I'm empty like a broken bottle And clenching this blade like there's no tomorrow [Verse 2:] [Hook] [Verse 3:] Lately, it feels like my brain hates me Hate me, sh** It basically makes me So I give in and let the blade serrate me Make the gun face me, let it erase me