A-F-R-O - …As My World Goes On lyrics

(Intro) Midnight brought us sweet romance I know all my whole life through I'll be remembering you Whatever else I do Midnight with the stars and you (Hook) Step by step, heart to heart Left right left, we all fall down like toy soldiers Bit by bit, torn apart We never win, but the battle wages on for toy soldiers (Verse 1) I'm so tired of being hurt, tired of rhymes and verses And tired of being nursed back to bullsh** that serves as A trigger back to nonsense I was always involved in Whether it was a so-called romance or conscience Mainly cause of a woman, or little girl with desires Of grabbing my f**in' heart out and taking a f**in' bite of it Started stabbing it with a screw-driver, I feel abused up A f**in' nuisance, I feel like a f**in' loser Who loses his own battles, defeat soaking in, channeling Hatred inside of my brain, I'm so quick to snap at it The facts of life are so f**in' aggravated I'm actually so mad at myself, and I'm mad impatient I face the actual rage of exploding on all my friends And my family, cause they're the main reason for my insanity I'm always hearing nagging, dragging my feet, I have to be Strong, but this long road actually is drawn to be Happy, but happiness never comes along, it slaps me It's laughing at me, why does life have to be so challenging Everything's on my head, a picture of her says That missing her can trigger emotions and k** my chances Of seeing her, but believe me, I don't even wanna see her Anymore, cause when I see her, I'll proceed to be Shedding a few tears or pulling my f**in' hair out A long walk to get her up out of my head, air out my dread Stab the memories and hope to God they disappear Cause I'm afraid of loving her, it's like a living fear That I have, but all in all, I let the drums make their pace The drums determine my fate, a good guy with heart-break (Hook) Step by step, heart to heart Left right left, we all fall down like toy soldiers Bit by bit, torn apart We never win, but the battle wages on for toy soldiers (Verse 2) I'm so tired of being hurt, I always swim with denial And riding along this life and deciding what one strives for I fear that I'm here on this breathing world as an a-hole Cause basically she just made me her f**in' scapegoat Saying she f**in' loves me, but nothing seems to be true And I try to believe that she is the one of my dreams, but I just Slump in this pool, drowning and trying to reach the surface I try to forget her, but seeing her face seems urgent I'm unworthy of living, I'm wishing to be k**ed off By a hail of gunfire, a knife to the skin, I'm Ready to leave in a coffin, buried under the ground Cause often I feel abandoned, and lost, and dismantled Taken down by pieces, and struck by this f**in' lightning And stuck under this mic that brings me the only joy Besides my adorable 7-month-old baby, and mother And Joel, and a handful of my other brothers Like the who the f** can really relate to my mental illness Don't try to say that you know me when you don't know what I'm feelin' Having visions and images of k**ing myself And writing some rhymes is really what's healing myself And I was strong, but that was such a long time ago Back when I first wrote my first real rhyme in junior high school I had a confidence matching, so powerful But now that I feel sourful, by the hour I'm cowerful Now my actions done had me stiff as a mannequin Taggin' along and happen to the man that's antagonized by The graveyard, I hate to be spaced far But that's the only way I'm leaving, is in a body bag For the gates of heaven, or walk forever on Earth As a spirit, whichever way I'm dead and I'll feel greater Far away from your guys' problems, and you can solve 'em Me dead is better for everybody involved in My life, I deserve to be unheard, I might just Go berserk and die, jump off a building And why should I live, gimme an answer, and I'll consider it Literally I'm injured, I'm feelin' iffy on living by (Hook) Step by step, heart to heart Left right left, we all fall down like toy soldiers Bit by bit, torn apart We never win, but the battle wages on for toy soldiers (Outro) I'm sneaking up on your soul And looking down at your globe I'm feeding off of your soul And looking down at your globe