7 Years Bad Luck - King Of The Ring '98 lyrics

Appalled by all the faces that Have shown themselves through places that I have been forced to learn to love Then torn from and soon carried off Aside from the few things I said To friends who never gave a sh** I let my head defeat my chest It didn't die, it just went blind and deaf (I know) I've been locked up in my room for far too (Long) Staring holes through all the posters on the (Walls and I) can't even try, to tell myself that I was right (I'm sick of me) and everything Self medicate until it goes away So I think back to being in A place that men have wrecked with sin Something my parents lied about And nurtured women die without And that's partially my fault for not speaking up I'm sick from doubting my guts So now I'm puking them up (I know) I've been locked up in my room for far too (Long) Staring holes through all the posters on the (Walls and I) can't even try, to tell myself that I was right (I'm sick of me) and everything Self medicate until it goes away Oh yeah. Alright. No. Black holes in my chest where my heart used to be They reflect nothing cause nothing is loving towards me There's also no one, who's always there to sing me to sleep So with my judgement impaired, I just sit and I stare And think how all could be better if I just rid the Earth Of my useless existence, my meaningless birth And so I reach for some pills as the sun hits my bed But mid-reach I get lazy and wind up falling asleep instead I don't want to die. I need to die. Anymore.