3Point - The Deep End lyrics

[XEL] I said, f** life, I can't even get no piece Not for a moment at all until I hit those streets So when I lay upon the sunny San Fransisco beach Always had to bite your tongue until you chipped your teeth When I leave up out of this life, I maybe just go sleep But it's in-evitable, you gotta lift your feet And get nowhere in this world when it throws you in a twirl You just hold onto your girl and she kiss your cheek Said she with you in the ocean now but it's so deep And baby, we ain't making progress, we tiptoe-creep Around the subject, feeling like the love left I put away the d**, yes, but now I go and flip those sheets Still waking up to nothing so I take another f**ing pill And they say "Gabe, you kinda crazy", I just hate that there is nothing real And the wait's enough, it's crushing still, never in my life Felt this low but it's so late that I be up until... the next day Making these stupid damn songs, hoping somebody will press play Trying to carve a little path for us, have to trust That there's room up there with God, have they already packed the bus? Life ?? to come together to be miraculous Burning away, turning to gray, it's all just ash and dust Still got family but they're tired of me I understand, I'm always panicking, but I was diagnosed with anxiety What the f** am I supposed to do? The best I got right now is to just not even be close to you A loonybin reject, sorry that I'm damaged They say "I know what it's like", man, you don't hardly understand this Staring in the mirror isn't easy for me And it isn't for anybody that believes what they see I see a piece of garbage liar that can't even be free I crack a smile half a mile wide but it's cheesy to be So fraudulently happy, these chemicals are flowing Inside of my veins, I'm not there like the wind when it's blowing I don't wanna make it out of this, it's the end of the show There ain't no man in my soul, the pinnacle's low And I'm finished, I'm going off the deep end And they say "Are you okay?" well, I guess it all depends Pain inside of my chest, it was so shallow, now it's deep in I'm reaching, wake me up, I hope I'm dreaming Thinking back to when I spoke with demons Looking for my soul, it's open season Let me just make sure I know I'm breathing So tell me what's the point when you're living in hell And this ain't even my bedroom, it's a prisoner's cell And everyone that's around me say "he isn't himself" But then them same damn people that wanna give him no help And I'm looking at my happiness, it sits on a shelf Giving me some kind of relief, but I'm addicted, oh well... f** it, my dream fell, I will never touch it Grasp it, love it, really I'm just an acting puppet I have to crush it, and move on Nobody cares about the dude's songs, they say that my mood's wrong Damn... can't do nothing right Aight, big homie, you can go ahead and cut them lights A hundred grand wouldn't give back my uncle ?Sam? I know you're up there looking over me cause you're the f**ing man You would tell me "never fold, there's always another hand Even if you snap, come back like a rubber band" I miss you so much that I'm physically in pain Nobody will let me ever forget that I'm insane But it's all good now cause you're with me in this grave ?as I hear still ain't no pain? I'm going off the deep end And they say "Are you okay?" well, I guess it all depends Pain inside of my chest, it was so shallow, now it's deep in I'm reaching, for nothing...