360 (US) - Subtle way of suicide lyrics

Uh I've spent a lot of time working over the past years Turning sober Burbing over the last beer Intoxicated, contemplating in conversation Lose my feet Chopping, changing my occupation Not today though, too many hours choking hard I finished work at five and head straight to the local bar With open arms while I'm talking to the mates I see They ain't my real friends but they suffer the same as me We just drown our sorrows as we waste our green Pretend we're having fun but really yo it's make belief It makes me see as I drink to myself I'll buy you drinks cause I'd rather that than drink by myself And I had a dream too I wanted my pa**ion But through lack of support I chose a job that's relaxin' And I regret it now, why not follow my dreams for? I'm another robot but yo I should have been more It's just the subtle way of suicide (suicide) Life ain't worth livin inside this blurred vision It's just the subtle way of suicide (suicide) I'm drinking away while sitting in pain It's just the subtle way of suicide (suicide) Yeah, I should have been more and work for my dreams more It's just the subtle way of suicide (suicide) Yo it's the only way out, uh Yo I remember bein' raised on what real life is I've got a wife, kids a job and still feel like sh** Yeah I've got a job, but I want more cause who wants Responsibilities for sh** you don't have love for And even though I chop and change every job's the same I'm gonna try to raise my kids the way I wasn't raised And yeah I know I've got a great son But if I haven't had a happy life then how can I create one? And in their teens not be ashamed to say they love their dad And not think of their childhood as something bad And understand why I'm not something great It's cause I work in a job for years that I f**in' hate I could have been something, had the crazy sk**s Now all I work for is drinking it to pay the bills And for my son if you follow your dreams but die Don't worry it's the best thing at least you tried And it's the subtle way of suicide