360 (US) - Im sorry lyrics

[verse 1: 360] I should be dead, maybe i got 9 lives 7 left cause ive already die twice, im glad it wasn't bye-bye Cause its my time to do it without the high life What im making is really dope but i need to talk about some sh** that happend a year ago Hold up let me clear my throat Yo im bout to get deep but i really hope you feel it tho See talking bout it hurts, its when i was an addict but i was at my worst No one knew i didn't tell one person couldn't bring myself to do it cause i felt like a burden Give me any drug i was chewing em up If i had 9 lives then im using them up No one knew my addiction, it was stupid as f** 90 pills daily of neurophine plus I know thats extreme and i should be dead right But i was so f**ed up my tolorence was that high Thats the thing with the codeine addiction Its over the counter so you dont need perscriptions Thats three packets in a day, i didn't get high but i would have em anyway Cause if i didn't take em then id be hitting withdraws and guess what All of this was mid tour And i can't play in this form having sh** thoughts like ive got nothing to live for I was a zombie i couldn't feel nothing I smashed four packets cause i just wanted to feel something [Verse 2: 360] Yo, i over dosed for sure I was at the venue, i was going to perform I can't remember, see i was told in the report My tour manager found me convulsing on the floor Everyone surrounding me and no one knowing what its for Literally no one knew that i was going through it all I f**ed up, i should be knowing this before Im a f**ing junkie how am i going on a tour I let down my fans and i owe it to em all Its why im being so honest and open with it all Its so hard not knowing what is wrong I can't talk about it so i wrote it in this song Woke up in a hospital going through withdraws Someone guarding my bed but no body would talk No phone there, no body to call Saying what the f** is going on and no one would inform me And im not knowing what its for Tubes everywhere if only i could walk A man approaches, am i alright doc then he tells me im on suicide watch Im a danger to myself I wouldn't believe him, i didn't try to k** myself But they wouldn't believe me, i spent a month in a hospital bed Living in a nightmare and i just wanted to end im thinking to myself Have i got any friends or friends who dont use Have i got any left? Theres many times where id want to be dead but we've lost to many and i dont wanna be next Now im happy that i got me some rest I know for sure now that i want it again The harder i hit the gym then the stronger i get The more the devil on my shoulders hasnt got any strenght I let my fans and my family down But the people standing by me are like family now [Verse 3: 360] Yo, im sorry to anyone whos a fan of me I understand if you wanted to abandon me But if it wasn't for my family, i wouldve tied the not and the rope the devil handed me I gotta show my father and my mum love And let them know that its not them that f**ed up Now you got a quality son If i say im gonna do it then the job will get done I embrace any pain, now im not gonna run The gyms a new addiction but a positive one The battle with addictions a battle on its own The worst part is i tried to battle it alone So if your hearing this and your battling at home Tell someone because your family should know Im loving life now im getting it back If i can do this sh** f**en anyone can I can't remember cause i blacked out But i wouldn't change a thing cause it made me who i am now